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crawling 04.15.07 @ 05:32 PM [1 comment] My Marie Antoinette paper is getting off to an incredibly slow start. See, I have this way of drawing things out.. forever, haha. I think it's because I'm a perfectionist who is afraid of failure... so the thought of starting a paper causes me anxiety that it's gonna suck and disappoint the teacher... and then I do everything in my power to not actually start it. Instead I do other things to justify putting it off, such as reading a few books ahead in the class. lol... issues. I finally finished the Marie Antoinette biography I'm using as a source last night. Now I'm taking quotes from my sources and putting them in MLA format, and separating them into the categories based on where they will be used in the paper. Not only does this take some time and let me put off writing, but it actually is quite useful, and makes writing the paper a lot faster and easier. All I have to do is cut and paste the quote from my "source document" into the paper when I need one, and I have all of my options in front of me. I'd suggest it to anyone needing to write a research paper. 
04.14.07 @ 12:41 AM [comment] it took me two hours to get out of bed this morning it's taking me over three to go to bed tonight i want to be happy
04.08.07 @ 03:15 AM [comment] apartment It looks like my roomies and I found somewhere to live next year! It's gonna be awesome... Two floors and a finished basement... two half baths and a whole... free gym membership... I'm loving it already  . It's a two bedroom, but the basement can easily be made into a third bedroom, which is what we're gonna do. I'm in love with the fact that we'll each have a separate bathroom to get ready in in the mornings... might seem trivial, but it makes all the difference. I'm pretty confident that the complex would be a good place to live, because I work with a guy who's living there now and loving it. We're gonna check one or two more places out, but I think we've pretty much settled on this one .school and life I'm feeling lost again ... not a fun state of mind. Things are seeming pointless again. I don't know if I'm getting depressed or what, but something doesn't seem quite right. I'm trying to figure it all out... It may be due to the fact that I'm used to having school be such a huge part of my life, I'm not really enjoying any of my classes. I don't feel like I'm learning. That's incredibly frustrating to me. The best class I have is my Literature class, but we don't really have lecture. It's mostly reading books, watching movies, and briefly discussing them. The only real work in the class consists of two papers, the midterm and the final. I mean, it makes me think and all, but I'm not actually learning anything. My other two classes... they're both taught by the same guy, and something about his teaching just doesn't click with me (or anyone else for that matter). I'm somehow managing an A in both classes as of now, but I couldn't really tell you much about either. The work seems like busy work, the grading scale seems completely random and off... it's nearly impossible to take notes with his lecturing style, so people don't even bother. Seriously, out of both classes, it's a good class if one person is paying attention to him. It just doesn't.. work. I feel bad for the guy because it has to suck standing up in front of class after class with no one listening to what he's trying to teach, but damn... I tried paying attention and taking notes on Thursday and wanted to throw my notebook at him, haha. I guess you just have to experience it. The guy means well, but he needs a lot more practice before he's thrown into his own classes - it's only his third semester. ...do college professors not have to go through student teaching like primary education teachers or something? ugh. I'm not enthusiastic about anything at the moment and I can't get a handle on that one either. It's depressing. I feel as though I'm stumbling blindly through life, second guessing the decisions I've made thus far about career path and choice of major. I almost cried upon hearing that I have to take not one, but three more CIS classes my senior (next) year... all with the above professor. I'm gonna try to get an independent study set up for PHP and MySQL, but it'd probably be taught by that professor, too. Another option is turning my work study into an internship. I think I'd like that. gDang it's late... I'm not sure exactly what time I'm gonna need to get things going tomorrow, but going to sleep would be a good idea anyway... so I'll quit with my whiney ventings and get to bed.
$%*&# 04.06.07 @ 05:28 PM [comment] I get to spend my entire Easter break doing CIS homework and projects... what the fck is wrong with this guy?! Seriously...
I want to hibernate 03.29.07 @ 05:10 PM [comment] Today has been absolutely wonderful... let me tell you.
wack 03.20.07 @ 10:59 PM [1 comment] From Wikipedia: Ringxiety is a portmanteau neologism formed from the words "ringer" and "anxiety." It was first coined by David Laramie, a doctoral student at the California School of Professional Psychology, whose dissertation concerned the effects of cell phones on behavior. Ringxiety is described as the sensation and the false belief that one can hear his or her mobile phone ringing or feel it vibrating, when in fact the telephone is not doing so. Other terms for this concept include phantom ring effect and fauxcellarm. It can also be generalized to describe the sensation of hearing one's phone or doorbell ring while doing such things as taking a shower, watching television, or using a noisy device. The reasoning for this relates partially to the idea that humans are particularly sensitive to auditory tones between 1,000 and 6,000 hertz, and basic mobile phone ringers often fall within this range. This frequency range can generally be more difficult to locate spatially, thus allowing for potential confusion when heard from a distance. False vibrations are less well understood, however, and could have psychological or neurological sources. That makes me think of an email my English teacher sent to the class: According to CNN, one of the major contributors to Wikipedia lied about his credentials, pretended to be a Theology Prof, but turned out to be a college drop out. Of course, this sort of thing happened before electronic technology, most notoriously in the creation of the Oxford English Dictionary (a criminal helped build the illustrious dictionary, and the details of this story appear in the great book The Professor and the Madman), but it still makes one pause about the site's reliability. link to story Interesting.
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