apartment
It looks like my roomies and I found somewhere to live next year! It's gonna be awesome... Two floors and a finished basement... two half baths and a whole... free gym membership... I'm loving it already . It's a two bedroom, but the basement can easily be made into a third bedroom, which is what we're gonna do. I'm in love with the fact that we'll each have a separate bathroom to get ready in in the mornings... might seem trivial, but it makes all the difference. I'm pretty confident that the complex would be a good place to live, because I work with a guy who's living there now and loving it. We're gonna check one or two more places out, but I think we've pretty much settled on this one .

school and life
I'm feeling lost again ... not a fun state of mind. Things are seeming pointless again. I don't know if I'm getting depressed or what, but something doesn't seem quite right. I'm trying to figure it all out... It may be due to the fact that I'm used to having school be such a huge part of my life, I'm not really enjoying any of my classes. I don't feel like I'm learning. That's incredibly frustrating to me. The best class I have is my Literature class, but we don't really have lecture. It's mostly reading books, watching movies, and briefly discussing them. The only real work in the class consists of two papers, the midterm and the final. I mean, it makes me think and all, but I'm not actually learning anything. My other two classes... they're both taught by the same guy, and something about his teaching just doesn't click with me (or anyone else for that matter). I'm somehow managing an A in both classes as of now, but I couldn't really tell you much about either. The work seems like busy work, the grading scale seems completely random and off... it's nearly impossible to take notes with his lecturing style, so people don't even bother. Seriously, out of both classes, it's a good class if one person is paying attention to him. It just doesn't.. work. I feel bad for the guy because it has to suck standing up in front of class after class with no one listening to what he's trying to teach, but damn... I tried paying attention and taking notes on Thursday and wanted to throw my notebook at him, haha. I guess you just have to experience it. The guy means well, but he needs a lot more practice before he's thrown into his own classes - it's only his third semester. ...do college professors not have to go through student teaching like primary education teachers or something? ugh.

I'm not enthusiastic about anything at the moment and I can't get a handle on that one either. It's depressing. I feel as though I'm stumbling blindly through life, second guessing the decisions I've made thus far about career path and choice of major. I almost cried upon hearing that I have to take not one, but three more CIS classes my senior (next) year... all with the above professor. I'm gonna try to get an independent study set up for PHP and MySQL, but it'd probably be taught by that professor, too. Another option is turning my work study into an internship. I think I'd like that.

gDang it's late... I'm not sure exactly what time I'm gonna need to get things going tomorrow, but going to sleep would be a good idea anyway... so I'll quit with my whiney ventings and get to bed.
04.08.07 @ 03:15 AM